Be Fearless

Lately I've been auditioning for roles that would usually scare me. I would think "There's no way I'm getting this" and talk myself out of even auditioning. I usually shy away from sexy roles but auditioned for a role as a temptress. I had so much fun doing the audition. I may not get the role but I'm glad I didn't back out. In the future, I plan to try out for other challenging roles I wouldn't normally do.

The Saga

I played a villager in a movie called "The Saga," which is set in a post-apocalyptic world.

Project Jyn Trailer

Please take a look.

Update

Yesterday, I filmed more scenes for "Project Jyn." I did two emotional scenes that still have me sore and tired. I love doing this movie! I'm naturally shy in real life, but Jynx, my character, is the total opposite. The writers/producers were initially apprehensive of giving me the role because in their words, "I'm so nice." But I have left them and myself pleasantly surprised. Jynx is fierce and intimidating. I can't wait until we film again next month.

                                         


I also did another film called "The Longest Ride Ever." I play a very annoying Uber customer named Rasheeke. This was another fun character that is the opposite of me. Taking on projects like "The Longest Ride Ever" and "Project Jyn" allow me to come out of my shell if only for a little while. This film is still in production.

Actors Anonymous

I am still on cloud nine after filming my first web series “Actors Anonymous.” We completed 28 pages in two days! The cast and crew are so talented. I truly enjoyed working with them. More to come...

                                          Cast/Crew Photo for Day 1

Day 2

Waiting to film my scene

                                                                I loved my makeup!

I’m not being punished, I’m being protected

I got the call right as I was going over my lines for a scene I was struggling to memorize.  “We’ve decided to go with another actress for the lead role.” The role I had been working on and developing for six months.  Six months! The role I thought was mine after several starts and stops, dizzying cast changes, and several directors.

I’m still processing it. But as I think back, I see a lot of red flags. To be honest, I wasn’t having fun.  I was starting to dread it.  I felt…uneasy. Sometimes spending time with my husband or just being in front of the TV sounded better. And I didn’t realize how much time I devoted to this role. With so much free time now, I’ve been doing so much.

I should have listened to that voice that was telling me “Something isn’t right about this.”  I ignored it, and now I’m resentful, my confidence is shaken, and I feel as if I wasted my time. Over and over, my instincts told me to get out, give up, throw in the towel, but I didn’t.  I didn’t want to appear as a quitter or that I wasn’t up for the job.  I kept telling myself, “It’s almost over, just hang in there.”

So though I’m a little hurt, I remind myself that I wasn’t punished but instead protected.  Whatever happens with the project is no longer any of my concern.  I’m just glad that big weight has been lifted. 

Baytown's Finest Full Movie

Please take a look at my latest movie. I had so much fun playing Malia Miller.

A Harry Situation

This movie is a few years old but was a lot of fun!

April Update

Lately, I've been feeling stressed. I have rehearsals two days a week for "That's the Way of the World" in addition to working and squeezing in auditions. Today, I had a first (two commercial auditions in one day). But I welcome being this busy!

At least they were in the same city -- Austin, which is a little over a two-and-a-half-hour drive for me. The first one was in the morning, then I had to wait around for several hours for the next one.  The second one lasted all of two minutes.  Then I was on the road again to go back to Houston.  By the time I got home, I was exhausted. For the most part, I feel good about both of them.  If I don't book either one of them, I'm still blessed and thankful for getting more auditions than I did in North Carolina. So I guess my new head shot is working.

Since I joined my new agency, Tory Christopher Group, I have been asked to audition consistently -- which is an improvement from every two or three months.  I must have a commercial look, because all of my auditions so far have been for TV commercials and print ads.  I can't wait until I actually book one.

I've been bummed that I had to miss a couple of auditions because of my job. But I always feel better when I get an email for auditions to replace them and seem to work out better with my schedule.  Just this week, I had to forgo one for a movie that will film in Dallas.  That one kind of hurt.  But at least familiar casting directors are inviting me back, and I am meeting new ones.

Pie for You

I really enjoyed working on this comedy.  I got to play a crazy person.