Now I’m depressed

When I get the call or email that I have booked an acting gig, I am ecstatic. I will have one more credit to add to my resume, network with some cool actors and crew members, and have a lot of fun doing something I adore. On the big day, I’m nervous but still really excited. After hearing “That’s a wrap,” I’m drained. However, a few days later I experience somewhat of a depression. The thrill is gone.

I’m not sure if it is because I’m coming down from an emotional high or what, but sometimes I get really melancholy and want to be on a set – any set. Panic sets in and I start wondering if it will take a while to get something else. I start submitting my headshot and resume for jobs more. I may even submit for jobs that I had passed over previously.

I used to think something was wrong with me, but other actors experience this too. My patience wears thin and when I don’t book anything as quickly as I’d like, I start questioning why I’m even pursuing acting. It’s silly, I know, but I can really work myself into a tizzy.

If I haven’t booked anything after a few weeks, I am at peace and start thinking rationally again. I’m proud of myself. My resume isn’t loaded with tons of jobs, but I’m astounded every time I peek at my resume. I become thankful for what I have accomplished so far. And my passion for acting is renewed.  Never give up on your dreams.

My first acting job in 2014!

I took the day off from my survival job to shoot a commercial for Hanau Products. The company launched their delicious liquor cakes nationally. I was selected by the company representative to be a principal or main talent so I was extra excited. What a good way to start off the new year! I was worried that I would not book anything for the month. My goal for 2014 is to book at least two paid jobs a month.

This is the second time I was picked based off my head shot. I even had a line in this commercial. I like to get to the set at least fifteen minutes early but was running behind and I had an hour and half drive. I made it five minutes to the 3 p.m. call time. So when I reached the restaurant where we were shooting, I ran to change into my dress and do my makeup. Usually on lower budget productions, the talent arrives hair and makeup ready.

            

Prior to the shoot, the producer sent emails instructing me on how to wear my makeup and hair and what to wear. The commercial has an island theme, so I brought plenty of sandals and sundresses.

One reason why I got to the set later than I planned was because of my hair. My hair is natural, but the company preferred for my hair to be straight and pulled back. I normally wear my hair in an afro or twist out, so my sister flat ironed my hair and pulled it back in a bun as the company requested.  

The commercial was pretty fun but quick. At first, we interacted with the restaurant extras as if we were mingling with drinks in our hands. Then I along with the other principal actresses did our scenes. We did no more than five takes for the different scenes. We were done by 4:45 p.m. As a thank you, I got to take some cake home with me.

Some of the other talent from the commercial.